I Really Just Abandoned My Blog for 3 years

 SZA-Prom

It is I. 

Not that anyone is reading this, (now anyway), but after three years I have finally found the time and energy to run my fingers pointlessly across my laptop keys, as I write solely for my peace of mind and self-fulfillment. When I started this blog in my Junior year of High School, I was bored, a terrible, budding writer, and pining after a crackhead. Now I'm 19, still a grammatically incorrect writer, bored, and in need of the self-fulfillment I started this blog for in the first place. The greatest contributor to my inconsistency has always been that I never know what to say. All my blog posts have been completely spontaneous and stream of consciousness. As I write to you, my abandoned hope, I'm sitting in my dorm room, restless, and still unsure what to say. I think that what I wanted to say was that I'm going to try to be myself on here again, authentically and unapologetically. I mean no one's reading right? It was my hope that this blog could hold all that was important to me, that this blog could be the world I came to vent to, to write to, to love with, to experience through, and to exist in.  Much has changed for me and not much has changed about me. That is what I hope to breathe into this blog. I hope for it to be a record of my growth.

    I live in New York now, as a side effect of college. There is no one word to describe how I feel about New York, but "It's a circus shit show" just about sums it up. Don't worry I will be thoroughly exploring my feelings towards New York in this blog, as well as catching up with my post about Chicago and, if all goes well, Paris. I also am a YA romance whore and so as new releases come out I will attempt to make reaction posts. However, they will be spoiler-filled so read at your own discretion. I will try, but not promise, to post daily as my schedule allows, so if you happen to be reading this tune in, I'm not as boring as I seem.